Nothing Hurts More

Nothing Hurts More

I can take any pain,
I can stand up for myself,
I can face my fears
I can defeat them
Nothing can stand in my way,

That's how it use to be,
Now my worst fears are coming to life,
My greatest pain is just beginning,

The one pain I cannot take,
The one fear I cannot over come,
The only time i ever really needed someone
There is no one,

The one I thought loved me,
The one I loved,
Is hurting me

He is my greatest pain
He is my biggest fear,

I loved him so much
And no matter how hard I try
I can't stop loving him,

Nothing hurts more
Then know
The one you love,
Loves someone else.


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i wrote this after a guy broke up with me to get with his ex girlfriend

The pain of being alive,
To suffer the living...
It's so disgusting...

Misery...Death...
No chances for resurrection...
For bringing back my soul...

No point in life,
When love suddenly vanishes,
Disappears in tears of the night...

When wish of death outstands wish of continuing suffering in this world of living beings...
You feel true relief...

I wrote it now...I know it sucks, but it's just my mind, my thoughts...'cause I hate life...I live only because I...yeah might sound idiotic, but I wrote in my diary, that I'll live one more year no matter how much I suffer...well 10 months left...

P.S. btw yours also sucks, so don't be overjoyed...

I don't understand why you're lying kitty, I liked both of them, yes EVEN yours so quit whining about suckyness -_- Sheesh. Both of them are a little morbid but like I should be talking...

And what's this about you actually having to write in your diary that you'll live another year? Go get help from a shrink or something kitty! If you disappear in 11 months I'm never gonna write more of those magic stories you're alwats wanting me to write -_- ....not that you'd be able to enjoy them anyways but still...

um...anyway...thanks Sesh, but I did enjoyed your tales and I wanted to read them again, 'cause I have some time now, but you know...old forum went down and you don't write here anymore, even though I did wrote feedback and Shinie too. AND YOU DIDN'T REPLIED!

Yeah! You go and write more stories, young lady, or there will be no cookies for you!

*gaspies* no cookies? 0.o

Yeah, sorry about the long absences, with crappy grades and unstable internet its REALLY hard to get on.... but I might have something for you guys to look at.... >w>

Yeah...she can...she already banned me from cookies T-T for scaring her ><

Mwahahahaha... I am da Mistress! Ya shall all fear me! *emanates evil*

I feel so awsome xD *munches cookies* Oh and Kitty... don't forget the hairbrush. The *evil* hairbrush from Hell!

And don't worry Sesh ^___^ We undarstand. You still won't get cookies untill I see the next part, but... we understand *innocent smile*

*cries*

Now, now... here, you can have a carrot :>

*munches on cookies* a carrot? That's just COLD! >.<

They are tasty and healthy! You should eat them! *likes carrots* vegetables and fruits are very good! Mmmm... fresh lemons... fresh carrots... mmm...

No cookies if you won't eat your greens! *stearn look*

God... now I'm becoming a mother figure! xD

yeah and those carrots are pointy and look like...khm xD

So now should I call you mommy Shinie? :}

Try that and die.

xD No. No mommy or I will become furious and seriously pissed off

AND WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT YA KINKY, PERVERTED KITTY?!?!?!?!?! >_<

Mum...I mean...erm...nothing xD
What do I mean? I don't mean anything xD
It's all about YOUR perverted mind xD Everyone sees it in that level of pervertion, as his/her mind made up xD

Darn, I can't understand my own sentence O_O

Yo Jez! Yeah guitar is great it's true! But...darn my fingers hurt T-T I hardly feel them at all xD BUT I WON'T STOP PLAYING!!! I LOVE GUITAR. Almost as much as Shinie xD No I LURV Shinie best! :]

Truthfully, I've got nothing against carrots...until now. What's worse is I eat them with ranch...thanks Alucard... >.<

butbutbut, what about me?!? *goes into a corner with cookies to sulk*

That's it. *drags Alucard over her knee* *SPANK* *SPANK* *SPANK*

And you will all eat Brussels sprouts for dinner! And spinach! Ha! No cookies until it all dissapears!

Jez, you were good. You can get a cookie now. Anyways, you're new, ya deserve one!

You sound like my mom, though I don't listen to her -_- *bites Shinie* I don't understand you, I bite everything I don't understand ><

Yay brussel sprouts *steals entire bowl* no I'm serious, I love those things. I actually got in trouble with my mom for stealing them out of the bowl when we were supposed to be doing the dishes last Thanksgiving (we didn't have them this year =( ) It was funny to she was giving me the strangest look when she asked, "Are you seriously snarfing the brussel sprouts?" I would have answered but I had one in my mouth at the time... Spinach sucks though... *steals the cookies*

*gaspies* Alucard! Don't bite her!!! Remember what she did to me when I kept doing that? No cookies for a MONTH! It was awful and it was my birthday month too

*growls* bite? BITE?! Why you.... BITE ME AGAIN AND I WILL GET MYSELF A DOG!!!!

That's it. *eats all the cookies* I will not make more. Sesh, I don't like brussels too much, but spinach is yumm... In reality, I dislike meet xD I eat it, but I don't rally like it

*looks at bite mark* it hurt...

I'm already banned from them, for the end of...dunno what and I dunno for what...for being evil or kinky? Or horny?....I'm fucking evil, remember? :] I'll eat bloody-meat made cookies }:] Shin, I'll bite ya in other place when we'll be alone

I wanna hear the magic word for biting me. then I shall give back the cookies. And I may even let ya bite me... a little.

NO! NOT A DOG!!! They drool all over the place and rape people! 'sides, its like supporting the were's cuz they're like dogs...kinda...

and no more cookies!?!?! *starts frothing at the mouth and falls over* *twitch* *twitch*

SESH!!! *slaps Sesh* SNAP OUT OF IT!!! It was addressed to me xD

I'm sorry Shinie and me~ow loves ya! *how's that for a magic word? :]*
Will you let me bite once again? I promise it won't hurt :] I'll be gentle *naughty wink*
P.S. Sesh, you made me freaking laugh xD

o__o If I wasn't me, I'd be afraid of you Sesh...
XD But I was only 'threatening' of buying a dog... Hmmm.. How about we get a puppy werewolf and train it to bring the paper in the morning?

Ehhh.. I'm concerned of the health of the both of you, so I'll give back the cookies... 'sides, Alucard apologised, so it's ok ^__^

Psssst... ya cen bite if ya want *scratches behind the ear*